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I've imagined myself all alone somewhere high above the ground where I can see the city lights at night or maybe at the beach. Nothing goes wrong at the beach. A book, music and a can of root beer always sounds nice. I'm not necessarily sad, but there's the feeling of content instead. Just think, contemplate and daze your mind to somewhere nobody will ever snap you out of it. A time and place where you can be in your most honest self. It's one of the best feelings in the world.

Before settling to a busy schedule ahead, here's a roundup of the things that happened last week.

Got new things from my tita and I was glad enough it made it just in time for the school fiesta.
Finally some time for my creative pursuits! I've been meaning to find to do watercolor artworks before my ideas becomes stale and I become unmotivated to bring them to life. Mental note: Consistency is the key.
 We had a quick date at Alleycat which happens to be a really cute-sy and anime-y(??) place. I am not a fan of a) Anime and cute-sy b) overpriced milk tea (Seriously, I can buy 3 from another milk tea house or whatever you call that. However, boyfriend is digging the vinyl and its turntable that has Up Dharma Down, Beatles' Lonely Hearts Club and etc. He goes nuts over everything vintage.
Conversations goes like this:
janmark: Have you heard of this? *cue Diana Ross music
me: ............
janmark: what.............
janmark: You know what I heard a familiar song at the jeep. Uhhhh what was that? Passion Pit?! I Got pissed
and we ended up having a song title guessing game. Obviously, I'm the tormented contestant and always lose.

Drinking games + Good company- Red Cups = Great week-ender

The feeling of going back to reality and busy schedules is unsettling. Sometimes I want things to come to a stop and go back to it over again, hence scrolling my camera roll and blogging about this at past 11. Oh well let's get it on for the week ahead.

As promised, I'm gonna post more watercolor artworks of mine. Thanks to our cousin's scanner (ours are broken) I have digital copies of it! I'm planning to create an art portfolio with Cargo Collective but it seems like I'm going to have a dummy crash course with its interface. In the meantime I'll post more of them on my Tumblr site. Can I get a weehoo? No? Okay.

It ain't obvious I'm currently obsessed with whales.

A high school friend Grace came home all the way from Iligan. It was her birthday so she took me to a place I suggested- Sea Green. It's been a long time since we've caught up on the latest happenings of our lives and rant about school, people and the struggles of blogging and time so we decided to make it up through foodgasms. Yeah we talk the randomest things under the sun but that's how we roll *cue awkward japorms pose.

The place was quiet and calm like the place was just for the two of us. As the cafe's name suggests, interiors have that hint of sea green and with white wooden furniture to add it up, it screams "too pretty to imitate *Z snap and hair flips"

Sea of Giants (May 4, 2014)

I'll try to post some of my watercolor artworks more often to see my progress hihi :)

Today in bullets:

• The #midnightselfie; behind each face hides fear after watching Horror Movies with friends. I barely slept for a few hours because we had to prepare for a fun run activity. I dozed off after running for about one and a half mile
• Watercolor work of a raccoon. Can't make out its eyes so I just made it blind hahaha. 
• My tita surprised me with the Book copy of Maleficent weeee I miss reading so bad
• Afternoon pen sketch of a deer after I just finished watching "Her" which I find really sad and touching I cried( I didn't find the movie interesting until I figured the computer's voice was Scarlett Johannson). The movie actually gave me a solid optimism of modern-day people in intimate relationship with artificial intelligence but i'd rather have not- unless if my OS is Patrick Dempsey hahaha

My friend Johanna asked me to be a model for her online shop because of the ~h1p$t3r selfies she snooped on my iPod. I was kinda hesitant of the idea, but she told me I get a 1975 shirt from her so count me in! We had our mini shoot around the neighborhood and it was hot and my armpits were crying a river while I was making awkward poses.We "quietly" sneaked into flower branches and grass walls in the neighborhood while people are staring.





I recently watched the music video of Carry  Me by the Bombay Bicycle Club and kept it on replay several times because of the amazing animations and sketches, especially the ballet movements. I'm having so much fun photoshopping it with the pencil tool. Now it made me want to buy a white ink pen for scribbling hehe.

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Ever since I discovered VSCOcam, I totally got hooked! I started to take pretty photos around places and edit it with its non-overrated filters that perfectly matched the mood. It became a habit to view the curated grid and surprisingly two of my images were chosen! *Such kilig feels I love how things come good and free like this lol.
You can view my grid here!

Two places we'd never miss on a mom-me date: Furniture stores and thrift shops. One thing I love being the only kid my mom took when she's out is that she spoils me and I don't feel guilty at all because I think I deserve it for being dragged in her errands *wink wink. Last week we went thrift shopping after buying food stash for the week.

Most of my thrift shop finds are summer essentials like that tank top and palm patterned cover up. I've been broke for weeks now so as I've seen these items I looked at the sky and thanked silently saying "they're just meant for me *tears"

While some would spend 394926589234892734982733 bucks for a denim jacket, I got this for only 50php. I couldn't argue with the booth watcher when I asked for a lower markdown hahaha kuripot na ha

Oh yeah and if you're planning to go thrift shopping make sure there are no holes and permanent stains (esp in the armpit area) and wash it a few times with hot water( you never know what kind of gunk it has gone through)

All the love for cheap thrills!

How's your summer so far? :) Let me know! xx

A single day with boyfriend's high school bud and their girlfriends ( Well there's just 2/4 us girls; others were out of the country and had other matters to attend to). We've been planning about this for a long time but with school in the way. Initially the game plan was just the two of us before he heads down for summer school and surprisingly the gang were brought back together..including girlfriends hahaha

• The smell of burned coconuts on a long trip
• Getting a Student Driver's License (soon!)
• My first commission logo work for a coffee shop
• Frequent pink sunsets
• Waking up at 9 in the morning
• Pancake crash course 
• Prepping up for a summer
• Dried flowers and the yellow sunlight on golden hour
• Oddly-looking shells in mounds of mud
• Overrun retail stores

Hello! It's been a while since I've updated this blog due to lack of time (as always) and there came a point I feel unmotivated to write anything here.But finally summer is here! So just a little update of what happened recently

1. A new haircut and now I look like my senior high school self again
2. Wardrobe makeovers
3. Prepping up for summer as shown in the nails hehehe
4. Keeping  up with journal updating and made my first birthday card for a friend Hoping I could make more birthday cards because it seems sentimental and hipster haha

 I made little summer plans in case I get moolah from heaven lol.Also, Been planning to practice watercolor more and maybe someday get commission work from it so yay! I'm pumped up!

PS: Pardon with the blinds-looking photo of me I uploaded it several times but it always gets bonkers

I admit, I'm not much of a fan of buffet restos and eating frenzies, but mom took us to Viking's on her birthday so I quite felt excited. It's been the word of mouth for a long time since it opened blabbering about how fancy the food is and so much to choose from etc., and boy they were right. Rather than being over fascinated with the food I pretended to be bored and "Like I've been here for like IDK times alruhdyy" and picked unfamiliar dishes hahahaha.

 So much for that, I didn't have my dinner at a friend's birthday bash but we just had a few shots and a very nice mom had to drive us home past midnight.

To sum up the month,

So ummm we celebrated valentine's day with Halo-Halo at Aling Foping's (and it was my first time and i love it!) and we had a walk at Felis and see the sunset which actually turned out gray skies. I admit we didn't enjoy ourselves this valentine's day because I haven't planned out our whereabouts on that day. My bad.

 I just think that we should not just show love and affection on that exact day but how about we make everyday a  Valentine's day. We celebrate love and the little things every single day and that's what makes Valentine's day, heck it's what makes every day of our existence.

I'm not completely anti-Valentine's person but I sometimes see it as superficial and cliche. But what the heck boyfriend have me a toy penguin so yay for V-day!

Hello! I am selling my Canon AL-1 SLR camera. It includes:

• 3 Sigma Zoom lenses
• Minolta Camera Bag
• Lens manual
• Camera Body bag

I was teasing this classmate of mine and at the same time trying to convince him to reveal the person he's been seeing lately. The the next days classmates told me how they finally saw him with this pretty chick and they even added "Pearl kung nakita lang nimo unsa katam-is iyang ngisi" (How he pulled off a sweet smile when they were together.)

The start of my 2014 has been crazy. News spread across the classroom of my friends' "blooming" love chronicles. Some had a good jump start, some bad endings for a few couples who endured for a long time and some have the craziest confessions I'd never expect to hear! It all happened almost at the same time.  Also hearing love chronicles from my high school friends gives me that tingly sensation of happiness and oftentimes disbelief. I see a different version of my friends whenever out from a date or simply in the zone. Sometimes I feel like a mom seeing a child grow up and can't seem to accept the fact their hormones are developing as well thus the sight of a less crappy son.

 Lately I've been starting to imagine my friends and me myself of what we could look like in the future. Settled with a good job, a decent family and our own car. The kind of gimmicks the Ted Mosby and gang are my ideal ones when we get chances to meet each other and storytell our lives after college and talk about college throwbacks over beer.

I'm excited to know the future partners of my friends and know how they met. Not by desperate measures but by accidents like this typical "oops I spilled my drink all over your shirt here's my number we should go out" situation. Coming to weddings and baby showers or christenings bringing gifts of which inside the wrapper are rice cookers and not those cheap potpourri scents you see in 88 peso stores anymore.

I'd just love to see the future versions of ourselves. But they're just situations we see in sitcoms, those things we think is cool and think "hey maybe we should do that when we can". We never know what and where life and opportunities would take us. Maybe, just maybe, my creative and wishful imagination would become a better and more amazing story.

So we might as well just let the future be a mystery box and enjoy the company of the present and talk about school and teenage problems over the synthetic goodness of McDonald's.

• I haven't improved on my coffee abstinence. I swear I begin to be more clingy to coffee these days and it has been my reliable source of energy for a long day work at school. I've been calling myself a coffee vendo junkie from the countless trips to the convenience store.

• My financial habits became worse. One of my resolutions was to "cut the spendings and save up for a bank account". I did earn myself a good amount....at first. Then I became overwhelmed with it and became a bad spender. It reached to a point where I had a large debt from a classmate. I'd give myself an F- even if it is nonexistent.

• On the greener grass, discouraging myself on the consumption of junk food by watching YouTube videos displaying the dark corners of fast food did work.

1. get myself some kickass abs- No not the large meaty one you see in health magazines. Family and friends telling me I got wider was encouraging, really.
2. Be less bitchy to friends- That one almost lost me a few good friends to stick around. To be honest, I'm not the pity-looking friend who'd give you a cake just to accept my apology. I don't even know how to start making an apology. So just to be safe, I'll try not to be the person to start the flame before smoke alarm triggers. Oh and that includes being a good gift giver cause I just suck at giving presents.
3. Update my life happenings. I'm addicted to twitter and Instagram but I'd like to share my life chronicles in this blog as well.
4. Check my emails more often. Sweet offers such as on sale Plane tickets and discounts are sure not to be missed. Also important notifications are already given through mail so I have to keep myself updated.
5. Keep an eye on concerts and recent happenings around the city. I got extremely jealous when one of my best friends went to Bazooka Rocks music fest. Until it became worse when I heard the Two Door Cinema Club was supposed to have a concert but it was cancelled and I just got the news from people I followed on twitter. I perfectly remembered it I cried over it. Although it is a bit impossible to make it to a concert that is a few thousand miles away from you but who knows! Plane tickets come cheap these days. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed , okay?!
6.  Make myself feel good and minimize insecurity issues. I'm a girl I sometimes stoop myself down when  a pretty girl passes by and the kaboom where are my self esteem could be hiding around the corners of the unseen dimension but the point is I am an insecure person. I slouch a lot and sometimes divert my being unpretty to someone who do crazy stunts after consuming a sundae. I'm trying to help myself starting from now on BECAUSE I'M FRIGGIN NINETEEN WOW. Man I'm starting to love DIY beauty videos!

Portraits after strolling around the streets.

Margie's Bake and Coffee Shop
Boyfriend and I agreed to have a study date at Margie's because we're trying to keep up with school. plus it was raining badly for the past few days so we thought it was a good time to snuggle in coffee and cupcakes. I've been keeping my eye on this cafe because of the really cool interior especially the colored wood blocks!
 Probably the best cafe ever, I'm expecting to come there more often!

My Christmas was the bomb. It just has been two weeks since the holidays and I can't still get over with the feels. It's been my first time in a long time I've enjoyed Christmas so much with my family and friends. A few nights were spent carolling for fundraising and enjoying me time by indulging in TV sitcoms.

New Year was a bit vague and I just miss the fireworks in Davao so people were just banging on almost anything for a minute and then "Wow that was it?". But the countless greetings from people was enough to make a fresh start for the year.

I'm writing this because I'm still having the hangover. Just hoping you had the awesomest holidays too!